Meditation on Light and Sound is a wonderful thing and I am very grateful that it has come into my life.

I had no experience in meditation. I had practiced yoga occasionally and found it difficult to be calm because thoughts raced through my mind. That is something that changed during Initiation and the following weeks.

In Initiation, I experienced things I had never felt. An explosion of Love and dance of colors that totally enveloped me, which I can not explain in words and I only managed to call it a universal orgasm.

Since then, my process has been curious. I Meditated with constancy and could notice how the ruminating thoughts were no longer present or much less and I felt in a constant calm. I began to realize that I was more in the present moment, that things that might have irritated me at another time, did not do it anymore. Since then, several weeks have passed, in which I have remained more Conscious, with more calm but also greater search.

I feel a desire to Love and honor all people, much more present than before. And I feel that I am in a process that is just beginning, because I am not yet clear where it will lead me. When I rationalize what happens to me, I find it difficult to understand and doubt if I am orienting myself in the way that my being is pointing to me. I have had moments of denial, retreat and repression; I think my ego has a hard time following the path of my being, but in that I follow. I seek to orient myself to feel more and rationalize less, with patience, honoring the Hierarchy and asking for help and accompaniment to my guide I am sure that I will go in that direction.